Friday, June 09, 2006
It's gonna be a random entry but anyway it's fine since i think no one's gonna read it. Just some random thoughts. I bet everybody feels my life is full of soccer, even my parents feel that way i must admit. But actually i feel it's more than that.
Reason being soccer is the only sport that makes me feel motivated. It's on the pitch that i run and run like a dog but strangely feel happy about it. It's the feeling of scoring a goal, celebrating it. It's the feeling of giving your 100 percent, be it winning it or losing it. I guess it's the same for every sport, and the best feeling is when u run and everybody's trying to catch up.
It's the feeling of being swift and strong. Of course in sports getting injured is inevitable but all it's about is
getting back stronger than before. Many times people say it's the mind that's suffering the injury and not the flesh. and i agree on that. It's the mental strength. I remembered this once that i felt regret, that was in the match against Serangoon JC during 'a' div. I took a blow on my chest by someone's knee and got winded, meaning shortness of breath. For that moment i couldn't think, just the sky above and everything else tranquil. Den came the physio who led me throughout the process till i could regulate breathing again. He asked me if i could play, i said yes. I played on but a little running made me feel weak, i pulled out on a few challenges cos i was afraid at that point of time. During half time coach asked if i could play i nodded my head. Den came the time when i rose and head the ball away and some guy gave me an elbow on my hip. At that point of time play stopped. I couldn't breathe again, i was in so much pain i cried. The physio signalled to coach to sub me out. For that match we didn't get a result. After the game i thought to myself was it really painful?
It was the physcological barrier that held me back. While i was running, i wasn't really focused in the game, i was thinking of getting rest at the bench during that time. At that point of time my team was playing with 10 men but 11 men on the pitch. If u get it. If i played on at that time would i make a difference? Would my team mates need to change their position around and affect the play? It ended as a draw in the end. a stalemate. A result which got our morale to a low. You don't have to be the best player on the pitch. You have to be the one with the best mental ability and the one who is rock solid. This reminds me of something, something which i want to relay to the next year's team:
I can't go on, i go on. When the going gets tough, the tough gets going.I'm sure those injured out there are trying their best to get back to their game. Many of you i know. But don't rush things. Take it step by step. Never give up on your hope of coming back and keep in faith. remember that you'll see the light at the end of the darkest tunnel. Just follow the little hope and you'll get there. Injuries are lessons that you'll learn from, it's part and parcel in life. Don't lose hope, try to contribute and be there during trainings you can help. Simple words of encouragement to people means a lot. Just tell yourself the mental barrier isn't there and you're strong. Dare to take the first step. Sooner or later, you'll be flying.
Take care all.
Those who believe will renew their strength, they will soar on wings like eagles,they will run and not grow weary.
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